As we all know, our mental thoughts are usually dependent on the ongoings in our life at a particular time phase. Some of them are too weird and we dont ever let it out.
I remember the instance when my parents were looking for a groom . I was 21 and I guess they were eager to get me married then. I looked at some photos and even met a couple of would-be grooms.There was this guy,US settled (no Susheela, not the one I saw when you were in my house) and his parents came to SEE me. I smiled and didn’t talk much as I was not sure if I was going to end up in their list for their supposedly all-in-all son. I saw the BOY’s photo , didn’t find it very impressive in the first glance and during that phase of life, not knowing the importance of life,looks were sorta my main criteria for shortlisting.They asked for my resume !!YES ,RESUME and gave me the guy’s bio. His height was specified as 5’4” . I jumped up and down saying he was too short ( no Sri !! I know what you are thinking,NO smart ass comments about my height) . My parents were gaping open-mouthed at my acrobatics and tried explaining that height doesnot matter in relationships. Anyway, my decision was final. For the next few days, my thought was revolving around guys’ height. Whenever I walked into the elevator at work, I used to look at all the guys around me and wonder what their height could be and how tall they look when compared to me. This went on for a few days and I used to laugh at myself .Finally, it stopped when my thoughts started drifting elsewhere.
Tomorrow, if I see my look-alike infront of me, I doubt if I will ever be able to recognise her. In the climax scene in movies, when two long lost brothers meet, have you seen how they stare at each other and go,”Wow!You look just like me.” I dont think I can recognise myself . I just dont look at myself that often. My face was a thin,long one and changed to a round,chubby face after some time. People who had seen me during my college days and who were not with me during the changing phase, have never recognised me with the change. My thoughts always revolve around how I might have looked then. Till today, whenever I see a lanky,thin,dark girl with reasonable features in SunTV, my first question to Suresh will be, “Does she resemble the Shoba of olden days?”.This intriguing thought is not momentary but is always in the background.
Recently, when I was undergoing chemo, it was always difficult for the nurses to find my veins as they are thin and deep. From then on, if I see a vein in anybody’s arm that is very visible, I go,”Wow ! Isn’t that great ” . I started noticing people’s arms , including the tele actors. Suresh , having seen my difficulty started thinking the same. Well..it stopped when my chemo got over and my thoughts started moving elsewhere. If you get a chance to watch Mr.and Mrs.Smith, you will find that Angelina Jolie’s veins really pop out in some scenes.
Ofcourse, some weird thoughts are better unsaid !! 🙂